HEY GUYS, *SIGH* …when it rains it really does pour . Ill update you on whats been going on lately..First, as many of you know my mom is ill and im taking care of her along with my brothers switching days. SHe is doing much better now, i of course am constantly worried but shes doing well and im trying to get things back to normal, and just as i was about to do that i ended up in the hospital early last week. I went to the hospital at 2 am and did not leave till the next day at 1pm. It was my gallbladder it was one of the most painful things i have ever experienced in my life..so after bloodwork,ultrasounds and morphine (which is a godsend when ure in that kind of pain) they determined i had gallstones and they gave me some medication for that. Then i get a call from my doctor a week later stating that i have gallstones ( which i already knew) and that i have some problems with my kindey and i have to go in for a cat-scan. Im really worried cause my doctor wouldnt tell me anything over the phone and i am still waiting to get my appointment with the hospital for a cat-scan. So in the mean time im not in a ton of pain but i am hurting sporatically. *sigh* it doesnt end here..

Aside from the health issues, I was getting in my car to go see my mom and the temperature light started flashing, so i took it over to the local mechanic and he opened the coolant resevoir and what was spraying out of it looked like coffee it was just mud almost. So when he checked he said that there was engine oil in the coolant resevoir, as it turns out there was a crack in the head gasket and all the fluids mixed together and got in the engine and all the resevoirs. SO i had to replace the engine…unbelieveable..the car is in the shop and should be fixed by wednesday. lots of $$$$$$$$$$ later.

THen, one of my best friends, lost his grandmother, who was basically his mother. SHe was very close to me and a lot of my friends and it was hard to attend the funeral and the wake which was this week. It was hard because my mom is sick and death has been a constant issue in my mind the last while. In death, i realize how important life is and what really matters.

Its been such a stressful time for me, i just cant seem to get a break. I was so excited about getting back online a couple weeks ago and then all of this happend. But YOU GUYS are just what i ne ed right now so, im doing my best to be online as much as i can the next week and then once i get my catscan, and my car back things can move back to some regularity. All the emails and support from you guys has been amazing..i really dont know what i would do without you guys. THank you for being there. I really look forward to getting online in the coming week and being with you guys, it will help me take my mind of things..so im looking forward to that.

I hate blogging all the bad times, but thats all there is right now and id rather let you all know then leave you in the dark. Besides it helps me get it out to those that want to know. THank you again, and i look forward to blogging some happy times and changing my luck for the remainder of 2006.

Love you all, always
Taylor
xoxoox

I did manage to get a few pics together for you, so u dont forget the fun side of me Its you that keep me smiling anyways
love ya