Hey guys !! Wow its been a minute hasnt it.. Things have been so hectic with the back and forth travelling to Toronto and all over. Its a busy time for me im excited though I mean I am sick and super jet lagged but overall im just happy that things are doing great. I had a great great birthday here in vegas and I have to catch you guys up !!. First let me thank you all for a great weeklong birthday celebration at :) that was awesome fun and I will be LIVE on cam alll week long :) so make sure you grab your free screenname and lets have some awesome fun !! Im feeling especially bouncy LOL Secondly, I need to thank you all for the wonderful gifts you all got me !! its nuts you guys are the best spoilers ever !! I hope you all enjoyed your thank you packages back. So, my birthday here in vegas was very eventful. My friends threw me a huge surpise party it was super fun.

Everyone including sara jay sophie dee and her hubby and sooo many others. came over to my place it was full of balloons and roses and love from all my good friends. I even had a balloon stripper lol it was hilarious. I had the bestest birthday cake made into a louis vuitton pink purse !! I didnt even wanna eat it it was so great !! I also got the real thing for a gift !! Me and my balloon stripper lol

Me and the girls !!

Me and some of the boys :)

Me and my gifts and my bday cake and me and my best friend were pretending to eat it i didnt wanna eat it at all !

Then we all went out to one of my favourite nightclubs Tryst and partied in our booth all night long. !! It was super fun. Then the next day we did a HUGE rehab bbq at my condo. It was pool and drinks and a HUGE bbq to recover and drink away our hangovers lol. It was honestly one of the best birthdays I ever had. I had a huge pink LIMO :) yaay Me popping champagne in the limo lol

Club pics lol

My best friend got a picture of me blown up of when i first shaved my head after my first round of chemo. I had no idea and it caught me off guard but it was the best gift of all because every day I remind myself to get up and fight because im reminded im human and im reminded of every hard time i went through. I havent shown anyone that pic because it was at one of the worst moments in my life and of course it was so nice to see that someone saw beauty in me during that time. So here it is for you to see :) it ruined my makeup that night lol good thing i was wearing water proof mascara !

All the pictures are here I hope you all enjoy I will be doing a few more blog posts shortly. In the mean time you should all be happy becauseeeeeeeeeeee I am gonna be on cam way way more. I know im busy and back and forth but my heart is online with you guys. So im sending out a gift to everyone who grabs their free screenname and joins me at and i will be doing a super thank you party ! You know i love to give back to the fans especially LIVE !!

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HIIII GUYS !! OK sooo my birthday is not till Sept 20th :) but you know me I like to kick things off early :) Soo starting tonight and alllllllllllll week long but especially till my birthday im doing a super naughty exclusive party for all of you who grab your free screenname here and join me at

You guys have been super generous spoiling me @ I want to spoil you back even more. I will be on all week long for you to party with me we are gonna have a PAR-TAY ! I will be doing hourly giveaways and giving away prizes for the most clever screeename that you can get FREE here. I want you guys to party with me ALL week long so we are gonna have a bouncy good time filled with lots of bouncing, lots of oil and lots of lotion hahahah.

IT all starts tonight so get your free screenname here and join me Live @ help me celebrate my birthday by letting me put a smile on your faces :)

Don’t forget the week long contest that will win you a naughty session with me :) woot ! Try your luck HERE :)

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Hey guys !! Its my birthday month but im feeling super generous :) and thank you all who have asked to send my birthday gifts its super generous of YOU my wishlist can be found at I completley spoil back :)

I am hosting a week long contest that runs from today and ends on 15th at midnight. I am gonna be live on cam all week and anyone who gets free screenname will be eligible to win. How well do you guys know me ? :) hehehe. Lets find out! I will be asking some questions and whoever at the end of the week gets them all right will get a one on one PRIVATE naughty show with me @ my free fanclub and a huge goodie bag all taylor :) !

You guys are my fans so I know you know me but im gonna be testing you on just how well you think you know me. :) Whoever answers these questions all right by the end of the week will be the winner. This isnt just for the private show and goodie bag you get boys this is for PRIDE. :) woot !! I will be happy to let everyone in the twitter world know that YOU knew me best :) hehehe.

Get into the contest at or just click HERE :) i wont make it easy ok some questions will be easy but some not so much. lol. And grab your free screenname here and lets see what you boys are made of. All of the questions are things or sayings or actions that have all been public. If you’ve paid attention your already a winner. The winner will be announced on Sunday after the contest ends and before football of course :) On your marks get set GO !

Here are a few pics to entice you boys !! See the FULL naughty UNCENSORED set in my free fanclub just get your free screenname and lets play :)

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Hiya guys :) Happy friday !! I mentioned I had some catching up to do :) im super glad you guys enjoyed my last blog post :) . Im known to get a little naughty right ;) heheh. I had to travel to Toronto for family and to see the doctors so I wasnt at playwithtay a lot this week but wooot woot ! I am back ! And bouncier then ever of course :) I will be LIVE all week long so get your free screenname now and join me :) . Make it clever I always love to see the screennames you guys come up with lol.

I wanted to post about the AMAZING time I had at chicago exxxotica it was great I absolutely love chicago and the people in it they are amazing :) . The convention was super fun and I loved hanging out with you guys. Im always gonna be there for you just how you are with me. There was so much fun going on it was hard to stop smiling lol, chicago fans were hassling me because last year I had cubs posters and I had so many people come up to me and be like “awww man you look hot but im a sox fan” lmao. So this year #smh this year, i decided to do a sox set just for them and then I got MORE fans mad lol because they are like take the sox picture down lmao. There were a bunch of sox fans though lol but they asked me which one I really liked and I said the cubs because everyone knows last year I started with the cubs picture for a reason :)

Lets start a poll :) you choose :)


or white sox ? :)

Hehe so you have those which btw are available to purchase in 13X19 autographed by sending 30 $ to via paypal :)

So, back to the convention :) Super fun hanging out with the confident strong beautiful cherokee d’ass we were beside each other and she was super cool to talk to. I of course loved hanging out with my awesome girls Sophie Dee and Gianna Micheals :) they are so much fun ALWAYS. And then I got a visit from the ever so sexy Caramel Vixen, that girl has a heart of pure gold and we always always have a BLAST :)

Here are the pics for you guys :) Its gonna be a great week I will be online all week long so make sure you grab your free screenname and get to asap :) for boobies fun and much more :) . I have a ton of surprises in store for you :)

And I know you all love my outfits for the conventions so here are some of me posing for the cameras :) step and repeat hahah :) I was posing since the day i was born lol :)



Hiyas, so latley everyones wondering what does it take to get in your pants tay ? What does it take to win your heart ?  Well I thought I would answer some of your questions :) since everyone thinks that its impossible to date me or that they need to be intimidated when really Im just down to earth and love to have fun.

Everyone knows im super bubbly and bouncy and I will be doing some extra special things on cam this week so make sure you all grab your free screenname and get on and see some live bouncy action and tons of free uncensored pics. Get a clever screenname here !!

And for the month of August even though I started more then halfway through the month im in the BIKINI BABES contest and im second place right now but hopefully you guys can get me ahead :) woot ! Please vote :)

1. What is your first rule when it comes to a date ?

BE YOURSELF !! If I like you I do if I dont i wont why waste each others time. Just Be YOU.

2. What foreplay turns you on the most ?

I LOVE when someone kisses my neck and licks my neck and kisses down my back Im getting wet just thinking about it. Its sooooo sexy and sensual. Yums

3. What is a drink a guy can order thats sexy to you ?

Since this is a candid blog and since I dont judge a guy based on his drink or anything but it is sexy when a man orders whiskey on the rocks.. something about it. I drink bacardi  but something about that turns me on.

4. Do you actually enjoy anal ? Have you ever done it ?

Yes and yes. Butt hahah no pun intended BUT for me I only do anal with someone I am very close with it has to be the right person we both have to be feeling it. But anal sex is sooo enjoyable you just have to be with someone who makes it enjoyable.

5. Favourite cologne on a guy ? Does it matter ?

Gucci Envy, Hugo Boss, Dolce and Gabanna the one. YES it matters. I love the way men smell. I think your cologne says something about you. I love holding a guy close and then smelling my shirt later and it smells like his cologne. Theres definitely an attraction in a mans scent. I do love the way a man naturally smells though. ( well not after the gym) lol

6. How many times have you orgasmed in one night ?

Well im on cam a lot lol and I orgasm quite a few times on playwithtay but if you mean in my personal life then in one night 7 times i think. It was a great night :) IT wasnt even an entire 2 hours it was about 6 and it was phenomenal.

7. Do you like to watch porn while you fuck ?

I love to make porn while i fuck lol no seriously I do love to watch porn. If your a guy and cant sit and watch porn with me then im not really interested in fucking you lol. I mean really it turns me on. Its hard to watch porn that my friends are in lol but there is lots out there :)

8. What would turn you on  more being with another girl or another guy. ?

Well I LOVE women so i definitely love threesomes with girls but the thought of two guys is a bit of a turn on ;)

9.  Whats your favourite sexual position ?

Doggy,hands down haha no pun intended lol. But I also love being on top I think that its deeper that way and I love it deep inside :)

10.  Do you like to talk dirty in the bedroom ?

YES !! In the bedroom you can call me whatever you want its such a turn on. I talk dirty and I love when a guy talks dirty to me :) Its sooo sexy.  As Marilyn Monroe said  We are all born sexual creatures,thank God, but it’s a pity so many people despise and crush this natural gift.- Marilyn Monroe

Ok guys :) I will see you LIVE on cam later and to see this UNCENSORED FULL SET get your free screenname and see them in my free fanclub :)



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Hey guys omg its been a hectic couple of months. I know I have LOTS of catching up to do but today I felt like answering some of your questions :) . I have been having an amazing time on cam with you guys :) Make sure you grab your free screenname and join me LIVE @ playwithtay because I am back and bouncing again BIG TIME :) Ok time for some of your formspring comments, questions, and statements :)

1. When can we fuck ? …

Umm never.

2. Did you get upset that the media depicted you as a porn star during all the LA Kings Stanley cup events ?

Not at all, I got annoyed that people just assumed or judged me based on that but the title of pornstar doesnt bother me. Ive said it many many times i am an adult model and solo pornstar. I think the title of PORNSTAR should go to many other girls who day in and day out create all different kinds of porn and work their asses off for that title. My work is in the porn industry and I create kick ass solo porn. So no the title doesnt bother me its closed minded assholes that think that every pornstar is an idiot that bothers me. Im glad i got to dispell many of those myths in my countless interviews. Never judge a book by its cover.

3. What are you reading right now ?

I just finished the 50 shades trilogy. Amazingggggg books. I loved them. Got me fired up. I think guys should read them to though. They are really good and entertaining. I love the character development. Plus it made me super horny LOL

4. What question do you get asked most often ?

Ummm if you mean recently in all my interviews its been “Were you hired as a distraction for the Devils ?” NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO lol its been asked so much that would be such a discredit to the team. They played well they won. I was not a distraction and if I was lol i didnt do too well in game 4 now did i LOL.

If its in my personal life its always “how big are your boobs” ? Answer: Too big for you to handle lol no they are a 34HH

5. You have been up to quite a bit latley, youve been shooting a lot. Is this for other sites or your own ?

Ive been shooting a LOT all I would say is stay tuned :) . I have an amazing photographer and am surrounded by amazing people. Lots of good stuff happening :) Stay tuned here and of course at

Also make sure you order my new dream girls mag by sending 25.00 to :) and you will get an exlusive signed mag :) from me woot :)

6. Your always working hard does anyone work as hard as you do in this industry.?

Yes. I work extremely hard. I am always full force. I like to give my best. There are a lot of girls that work super hard to be where they are at and some that dont. Most of the people I hang out with are hard workers I like to surround myself with people with ambiton and a great work ethic. Hands down Sara Jay has an incredible work ethic and it shows, Brianna Jordan and I are so alike when it comes to buisness. Teagan Prestley holds her own when it comes to biz.. there are just so many to mention. We all work hard. Its our careers its what we are passionate about and like ive said before If i dont love it I dont do it.

7. Do you believe in one night stands ?

I believe to each their own. I dont judge anyone for anything.

8. Your a butterface.

Mmmmm butter is sooo good esp with some garlic and mushrooms yum :)

9. Will you ever want kids ?

Probably not. I love my life the way it is. I cant predict the future but I know that right now it wouldnt be right for me to bring a kid into this world. Im not dating anyone seriously anyways. Besides my doggies are my children and I have my hands full with them.

10. Whats more important love or your career ?

Well i LOVE my career. Im married to it and i love it its a marriage I know will last. And if i found love they would have to love that I love it or they would not be in my life. Whats most important is first health then wealth.

Ok guys :) thats a nice quick q & a here are some hot new pics :) that you can find the full uncensored set in my free fanclub. Im on cam LIVE every day now so make sure you all come join me :)



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Hey everyone :) Happy 4th of July its great to be in the usa during this time.. bbq, fireworks, friends and fun :) . I had my mom stop by today she was visiting from Toronto so that was super fun. I love entertaining as you all know lol. Ive been a super busy bee lately but wantrd to make time to answer some of your questions. Im super excited about the amazing things that you are in store for. Shh a girl cant give all her secrets away :)

I also will be LIVE at exxxotica chicago and I cannot wait to go. I love that city so so much. I have been having so much fun with this stanley cup frenzy your love and your support means so much to me. Im so glad that i have the best fans in the world. As you also know Pinupfiles released a BRAND new set of me for fourth of july so grab your free screenname here because I will be uploading them to for you :) woot woot! I

I will also be on cam a lot more often :) I know its super busy and its hard trying to get online all the time but I will be live on cam so make sure you get to asap :) hehe.

Ok so here are some of the questions, comments, etc. from my formspring :)

1. Whats the best thing about being in the industry your in ?

Well it is 4th of July so this is fitting. Im able to have the freedom to build my buisness my brand the way I want to. Im able to be me all the time I dont have to pretend. I get to live my life every day the way I choose and I get to be on cam and have a great time with my fans. I get to put smiles on peoples faces and that means everything to me. I also get to know so many amazing people. Im very lucky I dont take anything or anyone for granted.

2. You seem so bubbly and so positive all the time doesnt it get annoying ? Are you ever just mean ?

Lol, Im human is what I am. I have bad days. Im never intentionally mean. I HATE hurting other peoples feelings. I will go out of my way to make someone else feel better even if it means my feelings get hurt. People have been really mean to me at times so I wouldnt wish that on anyone. I have to stay positive and I like to radiate that and give that energy to the good people around me. I stay this way cause my dad would want me to. Its never annoying to be me. I am just that person I have a good heart im kind and I want the best for people.  Im never gonna change thats my heart and my soul. Im middle eastern I have a temper lol sometimes it comes out but only to people that really piss me off lol.

3. Do you have a message to your ex boyfriends ? I mean they must be jealous as hell right now.

LOL.. yeah stop stalking me. No really though I want the best for them. Im single now because i want to be. Just cause we didnt work out doesnt mean that I dont want them to be happy. Even if they were big pricky douchebags at times lol. They are the past for a reason and its just not meant to be. Message to them : “keep doing you because Im gonna keep doing me”.

4. Fuck you Taylor.

Okie dokie thank you for that intelligent comment it must have taken you days to come up with that. I guess fuck you right back ? What exactly were you looking for in my answer today ? LOL

5. What would be the sound track to your life ( i saw you tweet something yesterday)

Perfect time to answer this question. I always had a hard time picking one song to determine that but the other night I heard Beyonce’s song – I WAS HERE that song is amazing I love it it brought tears to my eyes and I would definitely say that is my song.

Ill add one more for good measure

6. Will you ever go back to being a bbw ?

Short answer. No. However, I support that community and industry with all my heart and always will.

Ok guys so get your asses HERE and grab your free screenname to see the uncensored NAUGHTY pics :) all in my free fanclub !



Hey guys.. well as you all know its been a hectic couple of weeks for me lol. I was in La for a party and a generous fan bought me tickets to the LA kings game 4 and from that day forward it was all history LOL. La was so much fun. I couldnt believe everything that transpired. It was all from going to a hockey game.

So for those of you that might be under a rock lol I was behind the new jersey devils bench in game 4 and it turns out Peter Deboer (amongst other players lol) gave me a bit of a look. Or so they say well they said and they got it on video lol. Here it is …

My boobies made headlines :) But Peter was a really great sport about it and said some really funny things which you can see in the articles lol like buying me a ticket to the nj game since my efforts at distracting them didnt work for that game. I thought its all just been super fun.

From that point forward it was nuts !! I didnt realize that I was trending on twitter or that anything had happend till I got out of the Staples centre because I didnt have wifi. But apparently I was the talk of the town from bloggers, worldwide news, tmz, i went from getting ready to see the kings win the cup to interviews and appearances lol and it was just crazy. It was world wide news i was in the home paper and my mom called to say hey your in the toronto sun lol. Despite some negative attention it was all super positive and i have been having so much fun with it. People were suprised to know I know my shit when it comes to sports. I was lucky enough to have that same fan get me the seats to game 6 where the Kings took the cup. Being a part of that moment and that history was amazing.

I had to laugh at myself and the situation people actually thought I was a plant for the LA kings. Lets give those boys a bit more credit guys lol. I decided to do a fun video for funny or die just to have fun with the whole situation. It was a lot of work but it was great. Here is the video i uploaded to you tube and the link to the actual funny or die vid.

I have met so many great people throughout this and Jimmy Kimmel even gave me a mention lol as well as one of the kings players :) . Theres tons of links and tons of articles so If i keep writing I could write forever lol. But I figure ill put up some of the stuff for you all to read. Even Ocho Cinco wrote a blog lol.

Tmz managed to find me at the Vitamin water event in LA lol the link

Me in one of the local papers :)

more fun behind the bench game 6

boobs were definitely behind deboer

Jimmy Kimmel fun :)

The trending #boobsbehinddeboer that night inspired me to do something great with all this newfound publicity. I decided to start bidding the outfits i wore. So i have the domain of which i have already sold the infamous shirt I wore to game 4 and still 2 days left for the remaining shirt from game 6. Proceeds from both shirts are going to 2 organizations very close to my heart. One is and the other I have battled obesity and am currently battling Cancer with Non Hodgkins Lymphoma. I wanted to do something to make this feel worth it. If your intrested go bid :) .

Special thanks to @crs_one for all his help :) You guys are amazing now lets get have even more fun with this. :) Get your #free screenname and lets play at :)

Im still doing tons of interviews and appearances but always put you guys first :) Love you !!

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Hey guys !! Its been a while, things have been really hectic with doctors, moving and all kinds of great things but its been a while since I posted and Its time to catch up :) Im gonna leave this post simple since its one of many today :) . I have been doing tons of shooting and you guys are gonna LOVE the new stuff coming :) . Im doing a special fan club show later for all those who grab their free screenname and join me live on cam :) . You guys have been amazing and I miss you tons. Lets see what questions and comments you had recently :)

1. Tay what is your favourite pastime when you have free time I know your a busy girl ?

I am very busy I am a virgo so I’m always wanting to be productive and go go go. I do need to find some balance and relax a bit cause its better for my health. But I love spending time with the family and to me my family is my close friends and my doggies. I love playing poker watching sports and I love to workout :)

2. Your still single what does it take for someone to have a chance with you ?

Look I’m an average girl, its not that I am picky its that I am enjoying being single right now. I also have so much to focus on health wise and career wise that I just don’t feel its fair to bring someone into my life while I’m going through such an enormous battle with cancer. I still date but Im not looking for anything serious right now. I need to focus on me.  But I’m single by choice and its ok cause when that day comes that I decide to go serious I think that the right person will eventually come along and if not thats ok too.

3. I think you have a big nose and your ugly.

Aww ty so much lol…I wish you could come up with something a bit better then that. I love my nose because its my fathers nose. My father passed away when I was 6 and I will never change it. I think it adds character. As far as you thinking I’m ugly thats ok, I’m not everyones cup of tea and everyone is entitled to their opinion i just don’t think that spitting out hateful rude comments really gets you anywhere. Stay positive and maybe take a look at yourself first ? YES I HAVE A BIG NOSE wow super news flash I have big tits a big heart and a big brain too fyi :) I like to keep things proportioned :)

4. If you could be in a time machine where would you go and why ?

Id go back to 6 years old before my dad past away and hug him one last time. Id make sure we spent that whole day at the race track because we always used to go and watch the horses. I miss him if I could change time I would. I was happiest then.

5. What 3 songs are you listening to right now ? I know music is a big part of your life.

Oh music is so important to me. Its gotten me through some of the toughest moments of my life. Everyone knows I love hip hop but for me its about the lyrics. I have been listening to a lot right now but here are the top 3

1. Ambition – Wale ft Meek Mill

2. No lie- 2 chaiz ft drake

3. Hurt- Johnny Cash :)

Heres a few teaser pics for you :) because the rest will be uploaded to my free fanclub so get your free screenname and join me LIVE @ for a bouncy time.

Big Tits Webcam Babe, Taylor Stevens

Big Tits Webcam Babe, Taylor Stevens

Big Tits Webcam Babe, Taylor Stevens



Hi Hi guys :) FIRST I have to say thank you so so much for your uninterrupted constant support in this contest. Ty to all my fans my followers my friends everyone who takes the time to enter their vote for me @ every damn day. Its made me see so much. You guys have been there for me through so much and you never stop. This is why you mean so much to me. I can’t imagine a better group of people and I love each and every one of you. You got me through more then just contests you have been helping me with all my battles. Please keep your votes up every day Round 3 is in a few hours and I need you to login to freeones and vote. I really want to win Best cam girl I want to honour my title and make you all proud.

Some questions were asked over at freeones and people have asked me some form spring questions so i am going to answer them here.  Im always open honest and will take any questions. Here goes…

1. Have you been surprised by your performance in this years Miss freeones contest ?

Yes and No, its always anyones game to win. I know I have a fantastic fan base of loyal followers and fans. I also know they support me entirely. Its a tough question to answer because I am in competition with some amazing girls. Everyone is their own judge and they vote based on their thoughts and their hearts. I think I’ve definitely been doing well. Im always surprised at the enormity of support I get. I also do a ton of promotions to reward my fans not just on twitter. I work super hard to promote myself in this contest and I think I’m hanging in there thanks to everyone. :)

2. What inspires the ideas behind your video and photosets ?

Oh thats easy MY FANS ! I know what they love to see and I love giving it to them. I love giving the best of me all the time. Even on my worst days I will put 100% for my fans. Ive always been like bouncy and fun and I love to get creative. So sometimes I will do a hot sexy naughty video, sometimes a silly fun video. I always like to just be me and I always stay very true and genuine to myself i want that to show in my photo sets. My fans always inspire me :)

3. Why did you decide to compete in this years Miss Freeones contest ?

You mean besides the fact that my trophy broke :( lol it did and I’m hoping I can have it fixed lol but thats not the reason. I always love a challenge but I feel that I definitely wanted to honour my title from last year and show my fans @ freeones and my followers and everyone that is behind me in this that it means the world to me and that i deserved it. I feel that they would be disappointed if I didn’t enter. I will also address this further in my final question.

4. Beyond the Miss freeones category what made you decide to enter the other categories you entered ?

As most of you know, all the girls are entered into the Miss Freeones category which is still great, as far as the other two categories I’m in Best cam girl and Best adult model, the answer is I believe that my years of dedication to camming and to my fans who love to see me bouncy and silly on cam places me in this category. Also, I won last year thanks to them and I put my heart and soul into my camming. I really love what I do and that category means so much to me. Its in my blood I love it its what I do best. Last year was the first ever cam girl category so I was super happy to have a place to compete.

As far as Best Adult model.. I feel I have made huge leaps to other ventures and areas of my life. The development of my personal website, my photoshoots, interviews, magazines etc. I feel like I have transitioned without doing boy girl which is a requirement for this category. I have made huge strides as a model behind many cameras not just the webcam. I put tons of effort into my shoots and giving my fans what they love to see. I like to represent the model community as best as I can. However, webcam is where my heart and home is and whether I do movies or magazines that will always be closest to my heart.

5. Speaking as a contestant, voter, participant have there been any other contestants (still competing or already eliminated) that have impressed you ?

ALL OF THEM ! It takes a lot to be in this contest, to be in this competition. All the girls are beautiful and have contributed to the freeones community in many ways. I am always impressed at the effort and work that people put into it because I respect a good work ethic. I have a very go hard attitude when it comes to working and delivering the best to my fans and followers and i see that in many contestants. Its hard to narrow down to a handful. I also interact with a lot of these girls personally in my life at conventions and as friends and I get to see sides of them that not everyone gets to see so I have many perspectives to look at. I will say this though i would love to see a fetish category next year because there are so many amazing fetish models out there that I think deserve their own category.

6. This question was really a tough one because it hurts to hear and hurt to write. But It was time to address it. This wasn’t asked on freeones but it was asked anonymously through formpsring a few times…

How do you feel about the fact that people have said that you only won last year because you have cancer ?

OUCH! Ohhh u meant behind my back cause noone has said it to my face. Firstly, whether they know that I know it or not I know people have said this about me including a  lot of girls have said this specifically (obviously not to my face because that would require balls which people who say shit like this don’t have) Its hurtful, its spiteful, its just wrong. I lost a lot of friends this year but gained a lot too and I saw a lot of peoples true colours through this battle and it hurt to find out that some of my friends weren’t being real friends at all.

Secondly, that is so insulting to me and so insulting to my fans and supporters and to the people at freeones who work hard daily to ensure a fair competition, as well as the forum community that always supports the girls. If this was the case why didn’t I win Miss Freeones or every category ? This question hurts to answer there is a lot in my heart to say but I needed to say it for everyone who has been telling me thats its being said and for everyone who has said it.

Yes I have cancer, but I AM NOT MY CANCER. This contest started last year way before I was diagnosed. I was leading my category before even making the HARD decision to open up to my fans and before I even knew!.  I was so excited that freeones had a category I could enter and was proud of so i was constantly everywhere radio, twitter, Facebook promoting the shit out of it  because it was so fucking awesome to finally have competition that was representative of what I loved to do every day. I was diagnosed on Xmas eve, the contest winner was announced in January. I had a legion of fans behind me way before this diagnosis. I had many people on the forums support me from DAY 1.

Lets also discuss whats really important here. To say I won because I had Cancer is saying that I have not worked my ass off as a cam girl, I have been the number one cam girl on my site constantly. I have one of the number one fanclubs year after year. I deliver tons of photos pictures and update my blog with free pics all the time. I put everything I have to giving amazing cam shows. I have the reviews to show it. I don’t get sponsored by anyone I pay my own way and go out and meet my fans at conventions and promote myself.  I want everyone to see that I am the same girl off cam as I am on cam. Silly, fun, nerdy, genuine etc. I work long webcam hours and try to be online for all different time zones because I have amazing fans all over the world. I have no complaints thats hard work and dedication to my webcam world. I pay attention to my fans many who have become friends and I give them what they deserve nothing but the best. So because I got a shitty diagnosis on xmas eve that negates all of that ?

Does having cancer play a part ? In my win NO in my life YES. It makes me stronger. It makes me want to show people that you can always fight you can always have that spirit in you its not the hand your dealt its how you play it. So yeah it made me want to fight harder. Its tough to get on cam and be there when ure undergoing chemo and radiation and dont feel beautiful but I did it because i wanted to and needed to for myself and my fans. I also went to Miami for the exxxotica convention just to support the community but was not well enough to be at my own booth last may. I still did cam shows when I felt like I could and I made sure you all knew my struggles my ups my down and I still do. I still did photoshoots i got myself a pretty wig and delivered what I could to my fans. Did I want to give up ? at first yeah but then what ? I had the support and encouragement of so many communities some of which are people that were going through the same battle.

My real battle is with Cancer, Its one I intend to win. Do i want to win best cam girl .. OF COURSE ! but not because I have cancer because you all think I deserve it. I am a born fighter. I will fight in all aspects of my life. I do things fair and square.  This contest meant the world to me last year and It means the world to me this year and it always will. I know i work hard I know that I can proudly say that I deserve to win. Its not about the money for me at all. Its about hard work paying off.  Yes I have cancer but I’m much much more then that.  So this year, I want to prove that hard work and loving what you do not people feeling sorry for me is what really pays off.

You all mean so so much. Ty for your daily votes Ty for your daily love and support and for the amazing times and memories we continuously make on cam and when I get the pleasure of meeting you all in person. Freeones is a community that embraced me and I love it there.

Remember everyone that votes please screen cap your votes and send them to me at daily and if you’ve voted for me daily till the end of the contest you will get a ty package. I love giving back to all of you who have given to me.

Thanks for the questions they made me realize a lot :) NOW GET YOUR ASSES VOTING LOL :) WWW.VOTEFORTAY.COM and I will see you all live at so get your free screenname and lets have some bouncy time.