I know a lot of you have been waiting for me to answer some formspring questions since its been forever and you all know i love to share my life with you .. so some formspring on this saturday I hope your all enjoying the weekend . Im LIVE AND FREE IN VID RIGHT NOW

ok…questions….

1. I just got to say I think ur amazing and tastful at what u do. Do u still live in T.O?

Yes, still in Toronto but I travel very frequently all over. Thank you for the compliment I’ve always been me I do things a certain way and I havent changed that for anyone ever .

2. I am one of your close friends… I think I am developing feelings for your ex-boyfriend… do you care if we hook up?

Short answer : Nope lol .Since you posted anonomously im going to say that if you knew my ex you probably wouldnt want to be with him but by all means go ahead, hes all yours . I think that a close friend would probably tell me to my face, thats what i would want..there is something written in girl code about that. But hes MY EX for a reason…hoook up and good luck with that one you’ll need it.

3. What depresses you the most about this horrible world…?

The world isnt horrible, horrible things happen. Its how we come out and how we survive them that matters. There is tons of beauty in the world we just have to be willing to see it. Of course I hate sickness, injustice, judgment, and all the bad things happening to amazing people. But if all of us just gave up on seeing the beauty in the world we would never get ahead. We all get depressed from time to time, hec I have cancer but everything happens for a reason, the world is beautiful embrace it.

4.What mafia movie would you like to be in?

Omg, lol I love mafia movies sooo much. I would have loved to actually be in the Sopranos, but as far as movies def goodfellas, casino, scarface, the departed, the godfather, the untouchables…sooo many lol

5.What kind of Asian food do you like?

I have always liked terriyaki but i recently tried sushi for the first time and omg I am addicted. I am not a fan of seafood but I will have shrimp and california rolls a good friend of mine even let me try EEL it was nuts.. I loved it  I love katsuya lol when im in LA i take everyone there and I just love it ! mmmm

6. I think your full of shit… having cancer and being this positive give me a break. I hope you die of it.

Ty… way to be positive..be careful this universe has a way of giving what you get. I feel bad for you I hope that you are never hated the way you hate people. Its hard to be positive when facing this and fighting for your life but Id rather do that then just give up. You do what you want in your life and I will do mine.

7. What three words would u use to describe yourself ?

Well, the tattoo on my back says destined, driven, determined that was after i lost my weight. But id have to say, strong, loyal and a hell of a fighter and a damn good woman

8. If you could go back in time and change 3 things that would affect you later in life, what would those 3 things be?

I wouldnt change a thing. Look my life it was meant to be this way, if it was meant that I have cancer its for a reason. If i was meant to lose my father at a young age then it was for a reason. I am a very cultured strong woman. If i could bring my father back would I ? of course, but we all know thats not possible. Its about playing the hand your dealt the best way you can. Thats why im such a kick ass poker player right ! So no regrets..NONE.

9. Would you like my 12 inch inside of your vaginal area ?

Hang on let me think for a moment …. yup got it that would be a NO. LOL dude your an anonymous poster be more creative.

10. Do you drink or smoke?

I dont smoke never have, i tried it a few times when i was younger but it just wasnt me. I def drink socially i love my bacardi and diet coke. I dont drink any of those sugary drinks but every now and then an ice cold beer I LOVE.

11.  Right now…do u believe in love ? Do u want someone in your life ? Or are you too afraid of getting hurt ?

Im gonna leave it at a nice and simple NO.

12. Song of the moment ?

You all know music gets me through sooo much.. so its hard to choose, but Lil wayne….how to love and Rhianna California king bed

come now !! im online and free in video

FIGHT NIGHT WOOT !

September 20th is my birthday, ironically it is also National Lymphoma Awareness month. As most of you know December 24th, 2010 I was diagnosed with Cancer. Lymphoma. Yes xmas eve.. its not a fun time for me. Its been hell, I have good days and bad days but I am very thankful for all of you. You have been amazing in your support and Love for me and I appreciate every single one of you.

I went back and forth about whether or not I was going to post this video because it was very personal and very hard for me. But as you all know, I am always very open to you about what is going on with me good and bad. I love you to see the me I am which is the same off cam and on cam. My best and worst times have always been shared with you. A lot of people said not to a lot of people said to but for me I wanted to I want to inspire and help anyone who is going through this. I want them to know that they arent they only ones and that everything they are feeling is normal. When I first got diagnosed I didnt want to burden anyone I just kinda hid myself from the world but you need to surround yourself with positve people and just talking about it helps.

An update on me, I have started radiation treatment this week. I went this week and have hated every moment of it. But we have to do things we hate sometimes in order to get better. So im gonna do it with a smile and then come and relax with you guys online where I feel the most happy. I know what im about to face again sucks terribly and its gonna be tough on me but hey im a fighter my entire life and I will continue to fight till i WIN !! Yall know i dont give up on shit lol

Ill explain the video in a moment but first  I want to give you some facts about lymphoma and I hope that if your going through this or if someone you love is you will help or donate to the cause.

A FEW FACTS ABOUT LYMPHOMA

* ITS GREEEN .. the ribbon that is I love green so everyone get your green out and wear green and tweet me pics of you wearing green to support this month @taystevens is my twitter id love to see you all show your support. A lime green ribbon represents awareness and unity in the fight against all Lymphomas

*In the United States each year, some 54,000 people are diagnosed with NHL and 7,000 are diagnosed HL. It is the most common type of blood cancer in the US. The European Union sees over 50,000 cases of NHL every year

*Lymphoma can occur at any age, including childhood. Hodgkin’s disease is most common in two age groups: young adults 16-34 years of age and in older people 55 years of age and older. Non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma is more likely to occur in older people.

*Lymphoma is a type of cancer that begins in immune system cells called lymphocytes. Like other cancers, lymphoma occurs when lymphocytes are in a state of uncontrolled cell growth and multiplication.

*Cancer symptoms are quite varied and depend on where the cancer is located, where it has spread, and how big the tumor is. Lymphoma usually first presents with swelling in the neck, underarm, or groin. Additional swelling may occur where other lymph nodes are located such as in the spleen. In general, enlarged lymph nodes can encroach on the space of blood vessels, nerves, or the stomach, leading to swollen arms and legs, to tingling and numbness, or to feelings of being full, respectively.

*Lymphoma symptoms also include nonspecific symptoms such as fever, chills, unexplained weight loss, night sweats, lethargy, and itching

*The treatment of lymphoma depends on the type of lymphoma diagnosed and also on the stage of the cancer, its location, the extent of symptoms and the physical condition and health of the patients. Radiotherapy is a preferred treatment for patients with both types of lymphoma. The other treatment options include chemotherapy, bone marrow or stem cell transplants, radio immunotherapy or biologic therapy

*LAST BUT MOST IMPORTANT FACT… IM GONNA KICK THE SHIT OUT OF #CANCER’s ASS right ? RIGHT

You know there are some really catty and evil people out there that either didnt believe I was sick or have come into my chatroom and wished me the worse said mean things but those people dont mean anything to me.

I surround myself and am blessed to have great people in my life. Thank you all so much for your never ending love. This has truly opened my eyes to the value of life and who really deserves to be in it. To the amazing friends and to everyone who I reached out to me, shared their stories with me, its my turn to share it with you.

The video which is part one of two is pretty self explanitory but was really tough. I have many more to come. I wasnt alone on this journey you guys were always with me. I love you all so much.

See you all online lets remember what makes me me

BOUNCY FUN HAPPY TIMES . Be THERE or be square .

xoxox

Tay

I picked the songs in this vid for a reason… you all know music is important to me and i love nicki minaj these lyrics were of particular importance to me…

It’s a joke, it’s a game,
Why am I still keeping score?
I’m in pain, I’m ashamed
I’m a woman, hear me roar

and of course….

This time won’t you save me
This time won’t you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
This time won’t you save me
This time won’t you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up

DONT GIVE UP EVER ! ITS WHATS ON THE INSIDE THAT COUNTS !

How appropriate that my NEW ActionGirls.com photo set comes out today !! ITs all about big boobs going to war . Me and my big guns went to war today when I went in for my treatment Thank you all for being there for me. This was such a fun shoot its like i was an assassin looking for the perpetrator i love shooting these type of shoots its so fun . I told you some big things were coming lets start with guns lol ! And me giving the finger to cancer and anyone else thats fucks with me

So ALL free fanclub members and anyone who gets a free screenname gets to get full acess to the full uncensored set and can pick any pic from this set and have it autographed and sent with the ty package

I always bring out the BIG GUNS Me and guns equals a good time lol hehehe I have been having a blast online with you guys and will be online every day after the hospital love you guys tons

Remember the hot video and full uncensored set is available free when u get your free screenname !!

Dont miss out on seeing some girl on girly fun hehehe right at your fingertips HERE. Im live all week long and I cannot wait to play xoxoxo

Tay

Me and one of my wins at the Orange county fair heheh I love fairs ! If customs thought i wasnt bringing hello kitty back with me they had another thing coming.

me and sophie dee and our winnings double the smurfette double the fun

Me and the gorgeous she really is gorgeous man… kelly divine at dinner at katsuya and we were also avoiding paparazzi i feel like a kid with her LOL

and one more of me at the Nicki MInaj concert Love my barbie chain but pinky broke it boooo

I gotta get a new one

ok guys see you all ONLINE at my free fanclub lets do it big wooooot !

YAAAY… i love waking up to a new set from PinupFiles.com. They are my family. They are soo much fun to work with and they take amazing pictures. They always make you feel amazing and shooting with them is sooooo much fun. Tons of boobies always !! Make sure you get the FULL uncensored set in my free fanclub. Grab your free screenname cause im giving away some full action filled DVDS to brand new members

Ive been in LA and travelling shooting soo much you guys are in for some amazing shit this coming year. WHEN yes WHEN i beat this cancer i have endless suprises for you Trust me they will knock you off your feet . MAKE SURE you get your free screenname because you will all get first dibs and be first in LINE

Im gonna be answering some more questions, comments and stuff good bad and ugly for you guys since I love to keep you guys filled in on everything. The last few days have been rough. Its tough when you are trying to stay positive and pretty much you get shot down. But I know things are happening for a reason. Ive been through so much over the last year, its helped me grow sooo much. I feel I have changed for the better. There are so many people that try to bring you down, and so many undeserving people that were in my life that are now GONE.

Ok guys…formspring time.

1.If you were to have a theme song, what would it be?

Thats hard cause I feel there are different theme songs for different parts of my life… I love music its so important to my life.. but right now its still Nicki Minaj “fly” .  Esp the chorus .. and on occassion drake’s “im on one” and def eminems “I need a doctor”

2.Do you think true love exists?

I think for some it does. I thought I was in love and got really really hurt. Right now its hard for me to believe in it anymore. Im just kinda guarded a bit jaded but i have started to open my world up a little bit and try to give people a chance. But u know the saying “once bitten,twice shy” Right now I am just focusing on me my health and getting better and I travel a lot so no time for love right now.. I am still waiting for that prince charming and mayyyybe he will come along soon. Im taking applications

3. How do you like your coffee ?

CRRRRRRISP lol i loved that commercial thats like my moms favourite chocolate bar. But I actually dont drink coffee at all. I hate it lol. I drink tea on occasion.

4.Mommy, Can I Go Out And Kill Tonight?

Dude… WTF lol these are the kind of messages I get lmao. Ummmm You can do what ever u want lol we are each responsible for what we do lol. And I am not yours or anyones mommy.

5. Whats the secret to a pretty girls heart ?

Ahhh if only men knew… every girl is different so I cant say but being loyal,loving,have a great sense of humour and treating her like a princess is super important. But she has to reciprocate. Dont give all of you withuot getting it back. Both of you have to give 100%.

6. Whats your favourite Rob Zombie movie ?

Devils rejects omgggggg… that scene where they played free bird was one of the best scenes in movie history to me. The song is amazing and the scene was amazing they just went so well together.

7. What television show would you like to see back on the air ?

Omg I love my shows so its soo hard to say but Ill name a few… Boston Legal (william shatner amazing), Sopranos ( i know it had to come to an end but fuck it was amazing) Entourage is ending and i dont want it to . I also love my old shows like sliders, 227 hehe

8. What is the one impression people get wrong about you ?

They are so intimidated by  me and think that i may be stuck up or unapproachable when im sooo the most down to earth person. They are always surpised when i smile back. I guess girls can be bitches. Im not

9.Have you ever thought about dying your hair jet-black. I think it would look very sexy.

Thank you babes actually my natural colour is dark brown and yes Ive had dark hair if you do a search or just look back on my blog you will see me with dark hair . I love it. But im a blondie at heart. Im middle eastern so i have tanned skin and dark hair naturally

10. Which ingredient do you find yourself most frequently cooking with?

Extra Virgin Olive oil.. healthy for you and great for cooking .

Ok guys thats about all for today I know its only WED its hump day lets get over it and have a party ! Im live all night long @ my free fanclub so grab your free screenname make sure you email me ure screenname and addy so i can mail u the free dvd and join in the fun !! Check out PinupFiles.com and my free fanclub for the full set woot

I went to the doctor yesterday to get the results of my petscan… the results were that they thought the tumour would have shurnk more by now but it hasnt. It was not a good response. So after chemo, I will have radiation. I meet with my radiation doctor on Thursday they need me to start asap because its already been too long. Its not what i was hoping for but I will keep fighting this fight. Its a long ways away but I am a tough cookie and I will be kicking ass and taking names. Just keep keeping me company making me smile and being the amazing people that you are

You have all really been amazing through this and so supportive. And while Ive been going through some really tough times and moments its nice to look up and know your there. I have been having an amazing time on my webcam with you guys. I feel happiest there and I feel normal and you guys make me laugh and smile and they do say laughter is the best medecine right ?

Ill continue to keep you posted. Dont feel bad feel happy cause This will only make me a stronger person. Everything happens for a reason

Now back to the good stuff . Im online on cam alll week long and its Titty Tuesday today so lets have some fun !! Im giving away free never seen before dvds to anyone who gets their free screenname here. Im doing so many fun shows its been a blast . So come see your official number ONE webcam girl LIVE in action. IM button bursting, bikini wearing, bra busting, and wet tshirting it all over the place

Lets have some fun ! And its Titty Tuesday so you knowwwww IM gonna give you a kick ass titty pic

Love you tons… grab your free screenname now and then email me your screenname and addy 

xoxo

Tay